I was thinking this morning on my way to work (that hour long drive does serve a purpose on occasion), that the best place for me to practice all this stuff is at work. There are opportunites right and left every single day to put all of this into practice. And I fail so badly at it. I simply can’t hang onto anything once I walk through those doors. I think I must have teared up three times today (I’m still at work, and tear up as I write this). I was walking down the main corridor, where we have our school motto displayed: “To the enlightnement of the human spirit,” and all I do is feel that my spirit is crushed when I’m here. I try to tell myself that I can be a better person here, and I just can’t do it. To be so totally present and aware…and to be able to let go of all the emotions….nope, just don’t have it down. And even though every day is a new chance to do it over, to be better, to set the better example, I think I’m far too gone to be of any use here.
And now I’m going to go back and look at a kitty, because some days, all you want is love, and baby, there sure ain’t any here at work!
@songoftheheart - i really do understand, it is hard to let go of the emotional connection sometimes. we want change but feel helpless in attaining it. the fact is that its always changing, thats is the process of all things ‘change’ but in to what from what, your objective is to observe each aspect of the overall and see its process, sometimes your interactions can benefit, others not so much. like a conductor before a dissonant orchestra his knowledge and understanding of both musician and instrument can resolve the chaos at least in his own understanding, and from there make the best choice as to who to align the other musicians to. from there the process follows its own course. til a new understanding is achieved and from there the next choice can be discerned. forget about change,seek understanding. change will follow.
@longshadow618 - Thank you so much for this response, Ed. Comparing it to a conductor and orchestra…beautifully put, something I can see and understand in my own mind. Can’t thank you enough for all the times the Tao has helped to center me, and for your added explanations whenever I have questions.
@songoftheheart - i am so glad to be here for you, my only regret is that its taking me so long to respond.
@longshadow618 - That response was well worth the wait, my friend. I already printed it out so I can look at it often and remember! I know you can’t get here as much as you’d like. We do miss you. But you offer so much when you are here, either in the instructions of the Tao or the beauty of your walks or the awesome cuteness of the kitties, that your presence is always appreciated when we do get a chance to see you. I hope business at the shop is going well for you.
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I was thinking this morning on my way to work (that hour long drive does serve a purpose on occasion), that the best place for me to practice all this stuff is at work. There are opportunites right and left every single day to put all of this into practice. And I fail so badly at it. I simply can’t hang onto anything once I walk through those doors. I think I must have teared up three times today (I’m still at work, and tear up as I write this). I was walking down the main corridor, where we have our school motto displayed: “To the enlightnement of the human spirit,” and all I do is feel that my spirit is crushed when I’m here. I try to tell myself that I can be a better person here, and I just can’t do it. To be so totally present and aware…and to be able to let go of all the emotions….nope, just don’t have it down. And even though every day is a new chance to do it over, to be better, to set the better example, I think I’m far too gone to be of any use here.
And now I’m going to go back and look at a kitty, because some days, all you want is love, and baby, there sure ain’t any here at work!
@songoftheheart - i really do understand, it is hard to let go of the emotional connection sometimes. we want change but feel helpless in attaining it. the fact is that its always changing, thats is the process of all things ‘change’ but in to what from what, your objective is to observe each aspect of the overall and see its process, sometimes your interactions can benefit, others not so much.
like a conductor before a dissonant orchestra his knowledge and understanding of both musician and instrument can resolve the chaos at least in his own understanding, and from there make the best choice as to who to align the other musicians to. from there the process follows its own course. til a new understanding is achieved and from there the next choice can be discerned.
forget about change,seek understanding. change will follow.
@longshadow618 - Thank you so much for this response, Ed. Comparing it to a conductor and orchestra…beautifully put, something I can see and understand in my own mind. Can’t thank you enough for all the times the Tao has helped to center me, and for your added explanations whenever I have questions.
@songoftheheart - i am so glad to be here for you, my only regret is that its taking me so long to respond.
@longshadow618 - That response was well worth the wait, my friend. I already printed it out so I can look at it often and remember! I know you can’t get here as much as you’d like. We do miss you. But you offer so much when you are here, either in the instructions of the Tao or the beauty of your walks or the awesome cuteness of the kitties, that your presence is always appreciated when we do get a chance to see you. I hope business at the shop is going well for you.
what jo said.